"Magiging okay din"

This is a phrase I continually remind myself with when i'm overwhelmed or in over my head. There are days, I doubt myself more than I should. Sometimes we tend to be too involved with thoughts that are not even true about ourselves or our current situations. These past few months have been learning to be gentle with myself. You'll honestly make mistakes but what matters is how you choose to learn from these mistakes. You either let it break you or make you. I am writing this from a vulnerable place in my life. I'm tired, confused and deeply heart-broken. But days like these remind me of what the The Bible says about God being our strength when we are weak. I wanted to curl up under my sheets today and cry but instead I chose to get up early, clean the house and organized my things. You can't always give into your emotions and let it drive you. The battle is real and you sometimes feel terribly defeated by it, it sucks. Although, I need to remind you that this too shall pass. It's okay to cry about it and to be honest, vulnerable and raw with others about what you're going through at the moment. Growing up in an Asian home, I always felt the need to keep everything within myself. I constantly feared being a burden to others and being honest with my struggles. 

You're not alone. I believe that in our weakest and most frail moments in life are where we also find ourselves. It was in my lowest moment that I found God. It was through my desperation, I discovered my one true healer. It is in the seasons of breaking and molding that we are created, renewed and made alive. If you have no one else to talk to about it, take it up to the Lord. Even when it feels silent, I assure you that He is listening to every single word uttered. You are still a beauty even when you feel broken. You are still loved even when you feel like everyone has left the room- you're never alone. The Resurrection of Jesus Christ is your victory. His strength is your strength.